Depressed

Ya , i know you are sad ,

but do u think i'm happy everyday like that seeing both of you didn't talk ?

I really dont dare to talk to you...

i scared you will scold me...

i scared you will say i quarrel back...

Now ,

after exam...

i just went out for the past two weekend ,

you dont like ,

and i have to see the face everyday...

do you think i'm happy???

My friend invite me out ,

I don't dare to say yes ,

and i rejected it say i have dinner with my family..

do you understand how's that feel..

I cried when i heard you cried ,

I know you angry with me cause i didn't go for the Russian class..

I know you angry with dad cause he drink until drunk..

but i didn't mean to ignore what you say...

i just hope we can make a best decision together without end up quarreling and you dont like..

I really do hope you can try to accept and understand...

dont always just reject my thoughts..

I don't know how to talk to you ,

cause i really feel scared...

Do you understand??

hais...

What should i do??

Anyway ,

just knew that i'm leaving on Mid of September..