My special birthday

my birthday meal ^^

cooking spaghetti sauce

sausages xD

preparing...

so many hotdog..

Dear cooking hotdog...

cooking spaghetti...

checking is the hotdog cooked...

dear concentrating..i curi tangkap..

Although it's just normal,

but it's special for me...

i'm happy...

thanks my dear...

Mami...

Birthday

Happy Birthday to myself...

lame...

lolx..

I thought i should be happy...

but...

now i dont know should i...

but anyway...

I'm 18..

i should be happy...

haha...

end post.

=)

我不能太在乎，我不能！

但我不能不在乎，因为，我爱你！

Sad...

Whole day no mood...

don't even wanted to celebrate birthday..

although my parents wanted..

cause..

i really dont have the mood to celebrate...

feel like everything i did is useless..

cant achieve what i want..

even she also like that...

no respond to me...

i really freak out...

i will gone crazy one day..

Mum and Dad is already giving me pressure..

now still have to worry bout relationship..

what should i do...

i'm really sick..

Blur

I thought that today i will be happy...

cause can meet and see her...

although just less than an hour..

but it's enough..

really miss her much...

and felt excited to see her today...

Suddenly,

i really totally blur..

what had happened?

why just cant talk to me and tell me what u unhappy about??

why always wan me to ignore you...

when i'm sad,

the first person i would find is you..

i'll tell you..

at least i felt better after that..

BUT,

when you are sad..

i don't even have chance to talk to you..

i don't even know what had happened..

I'm TOTALLY BLUR...

when you sad , i will also feel sad,

cause i love and care bout you..

why just can't talk to me when you are sad...

....

i really don't know what to say...

i hate this kind of feel..

My left arm...

suddenly pain like hell,

cant lift up ,

cant bend..

don't know what happened...

-When you sad , I'm sad-

Fine...

Okay..

this is my last time get permission from you...

no more next time..

next time i wouldn't ask...

NEVER!

i don't want to quarrel with you already...

i don't want to be said as a bad son...

which you think so...

fine..

just follow what you want...

i will not tell you anything anymore...

i don't want always end up quarrel...

sorry..

i also will few sad when i saw you are sad...

but..

how should i discuss with you when i just ask and you just straight say NO...

fine...

all my fault...

thats all....

Busy Moment

Pass few days keep concentrate on doing that freaking assignment,

finally pass it up yesterday..

woohoo...

Mami start work yesterday le...

First day and First time work..

Feel dou she very tired lor...

7.30am go , 7.30pm only back home..

somemore have to study for exam...

sigh...

hope she can tahan lu...

support you always...

and remember take care of baby oo...

xD.

Yesterday follow Onion car back home..

she be my driver..

wahaha..

joking joking...

hope can fetch me home everyday...

then i can save money..

haha...

Have to start study already...

less than 1 month to exam..

O level and Foundation

-_-'''

pity me..

1 more week then 1'm 18...

countdown countdown...

;p.

4th Month

14/4

4th month together with Jac le....

happy happy...

haha..

awaiting for tomorrow..xD

Just finish 1 out of 3 of my assignment...

walau...

sibeh many...

still got 2 more to go...

cham...

hope can finish in time...

crazy d...

1 assignment need at least 5,000 words..

wtf....

do le few days only managed key in 3,000+ words...

dont care already...

so many...

siao eh...

continue do 2nd assignment..

chemistry( Hardest among 3)...

wish me luck...

and these few days keep headache..

dont know why...

ate painkiller also pain...

sigh...

12am le!!!

i LOVE you my dear!

14 April 2010

what to do...

Ya...

i'm thinking too much...

but not i wanted to...

i dont know how to tell what i feel now..

and i have no chance to tell...

even my mum and godsis know i'm in bad mood today...

they ask me...

why look sad and dont talk,

isit because of her..

what happen...

i just can smile hardly..

and tell them nothing, i'm just tired.

i dont know how long i can care bout you like that,

even knowing that you dont want choi me..

but

i know i'm going to collapse.

Sorry

Sorry..I Love You